Act As If

Ok, so I'm going to do a quick update on my whole medical status and then I'm going to be finished with that subject. 
So, Doctor #1 (who I liked and trusted) told me that all my blood work was completely jacked up and I needed to see a specialist...she referred me to a hematologist.
Doctor #2 (who was a jackass) told me that all my blood work was completely normal and there was absolutely nothing wrong with me.  I protested this opinion and pointed out the fact that I am still fatigued and getting mystery bruising and whatnot.  I swear on my freakin' life this man told me to sleep more and to try to not bump into things.  I was irate to say the very least.
I then decide to call Doctor #1 back and ask her opinion.  I spoke to a nurse in her office who told me that she would speak with the doc and they would call me back later that day.  The next day I still hadn't heard anything so I called again.  This was almost a week ago.  I have now also lost faith in the doctor that I liked and trusted.  I'm over it.

This past weekend I was inspired, I watching movies with the boys (gay husband and his boyfriend), and we ended up watching Boiler Room.  There was a part in the movie where Ben Affleck's character says (caution foul language ahead), "Act as if you are the fucking president of this firm. Act as if you have a nine inch cock. Act as if."  I'm taking that to heart...well, not the president of the firm or 9" cock thing....but I'm going to act as if.  I'm going to act as if I'm the happiest, healthiest person on the planet.  So screw you doctors, screw you tiredness and bruising, and screw you blood work.  I'm really fucking stubborn and you will not win, because I said so.

And as a side note, I think I'm also going to act as if I know the winning lotto numbers.  Cha-Ching